Posted by : Unknown Saturday, 2 January 2016

For my 38th birthday, I decided to get a new tattoo. Since then, the ink adrenaline has been flowing and I have been contemplating a new one. With my zodiac triptych of dragon, scorpion, and butterfly complete, I wanted to move on to something that represented all my geeky loves. I settled on a Renegon symbol from Mass Effect, but then what about my love of X-Men? Could I leave out Dragon Age? Star Wars? Everything else? Finally, I decided that all of this has already been represented in the symbol and nickname I'd chosen long ago, back in high school: nightxade.

Next step: placement. A little flowered anklet? A ring? Yeah... no... I decided to go all out and finally get a full back tattoo -- the kind of ink I've always admired but had neither the guts nor the money to achieve. Combine that with the final words from a poem I wrote long ago, and I had a plan. A plan that was painfully but beautifully modified by the death of my mother when my cousin-in-law suggested that I use my mother's beautiful script in my design.

My mother's handwriting had always bothered me. It was so flowy and elaborate and confident -- just like my mother. Now that she's gone, I miss seeing her notes posted all over the house.
Mom wasn't particularly fond of my tattoos. In her eyes, they were probably the worst of the sins I had committed in my misguided youth, especially since it's right there in the Bible that I'm not supposed to do that:
Leviticus 19:28 (NIV): "Do not cut your bodies for the dead or put tattoo marks on yourselves. I am the LORD."
I told mom that I was going to get a new tattoo and from her deathbed, she laughed as my daughters applied faked tattoos they had chosen to her frail arms. "What am I supposed to do about that now?" she said. Hell, she didn't even say anything about the one I got last year. My first tattoo when I was 21 almost gave my dad a heart attack. The second a few years later convinced my mother that I was cursed thanks to the discovery of a cyst on my ovary, which seemed to confirm God's ruling that my sins would make me barren. But either her old age or the fact that I birthed two beautiful daughters had tempered her concerns by then and neither she nor my father said a word about my tattoo, much to my petulant adult child disappointment.

There is great irony in the fact that mom's notes that I found and from which I put together the script for my ink actually were Leviticus 19:28. Two pages of notes talking about cursing. Leviticus is full of that. My mom had a great sense of humour. She would appreciate the irony.

And so, long story short, I now have a shiny new tat that both represents me and is a fitting tribute to my wonderful mother that would make her shake her head and sigh. 

Miss you mom, but I know you're still with me.

With many thanks to Simon Field for helping me with the draft, and Kent Street Tattoo for the beautiful final product.


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